.ouR.SoNG.

I have found my Romeo. His name is Eric. So amazing!! Its like my fairytale story i've been playing over and over in my head has finally came true.I thanks God every day for putting him into my life. But I cant help but wonder whats next?

Only time will tell.

.My.Guys.

Finally, my love life is getting too complicating for me to keep straight in my mind. I've decided to write them all down and re-explain each one to myself.

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Nathan is the really cute, sweet, and mysterious co-worker of mine. I cant help but feel attracted to him. Who wouldn't like a partner in the work place? He has the potential to be amazing if I scrounge up the courage for the first move. There'sonly one problem though...he goes to a completely different school than I do that's about 25 miles away AND...he's quitting in five days. Will I ever see him again? Maybe fate will bring us together once more.

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Eric-The man I met at a First-Day-of-Summer Party. We barely talked at all and I didn't think I would ever see him again. That was until I got a phone call from him one night. At the time we could only be friends because I had a boyfriend. Since then we have spent every moment of summer together. He's amazing. He surprised me at work with flowers(twice), takes me out on dates, bought me a locket, tells me he loves me, and even tattooed my name on his arm. I know that I am truley in love with him but we're just seeing each-other right now. I dont know if it will build into more, or if it will be just a summer romance. My mom's side of my brain wonders if i'm missing out on something by being with him, but the other side of me wants to stay because I love him.

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Brad-My first kiss and my childhood best-friend. He's grown from little Bradley from down the street to a handsome, caring, and honest man. He and I have had feelings for eachother for a long time, but we never seem to want what the other one wants. If I have a boyfriend he wants me and vise-versa. If ever I get into a relationship with him, If we break-up will I lose my longest, most treasured friend?

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Nick-My long-distance romance. I had met him online last year right before my birthday. We talked every night last summer, but the night before school started he told me loved me and never called again. Fast forward to the present day, Nick and I started e-mailing again and we got back in touch. We talk once again all the time, but less than last summer. We have never met in person but he only lives six hours away. He wants me to finally meet him because someday he wants to marry me. He promises he'll never stop calling no matter what, but I think...If he could easily stop back then, whats stopping him from doing it again? He's asking for a lot of commitment that i'm not sure if i'm ready to endure. I have feelings for him. We have so much in common and click so well, but does he really want me or a relationship so he wont be alone?

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Trent-Last but not least. He and I are friends. We party together and care about eachother. I can talk to him about anything and be myself, not put on a show to impress anyone. He fits the idea of my perfect man in my dreams. He's rugged, tough, helpful, good with his hands, he's smart, and has values and goals. He opens up to me and isnt afraid of being Mr. ToughGuy around me. I see his rough and soft sides. We have slept together twice but it never gets talked about. None of our friends know about it, but I know that he cares about me as much as I do him. In a way I would like a relationship with him. He would make any girl very happy. Could I be that lucky girl? Or should I hide my emotions for him and keep living quietley in Dreamland?

.Romeo?.

Every day I get in my little blue car and head to work. As I get closer to my destination I catch myself searching for the one thing that will cheer my workday up. The green Mercury Grand Marquis sitting on the east side of the parking lot. Nathan was there. I thought I knew mostly everybody in the area since, well, everybody knows everybody. But as soon as I saw him stroll up to my cashier and refill the paper bags my heart melted with a deep need to discover who this mystery man was.

In my mind I've been screaming my true feeling for him, pondering what he is really like. Could he be my long lost Romeo? Or is he just another pretty face with a good butt? Should I tell him how I feel about him? Or should I forever admire from a far?

I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Only time will tell.

.I.am.a.deeply.Superficial.person.

"In the future everyone will be famous for fifteen minutes."

A dedication to the great Andy Warhol.

My biggest Inspiration.

.Being.a.Girl.

Why is it that the girl is born and raised to serve the man? My father is a very Old-Fashioned traditional man who believes that the woman's place is the kitchen. He and his childhood best-friend grew up together. Our entire families are extremley close to one another. Whats the best thing that could happen to the two cozy families? Why...nothing other than conjoining. In my opinion they have had this planned out since childhood. My dads best-friends-son is my age, a spitting of his and my father, and strangley attracted to me. Personally, I wish I could see him as nothing more than little Bradley from down the road as I did in my childhood, but in some strange way I find him completley enamering.

I wonder what the future has im mind for me. Will I end up with him? Is it my destiny to be with him and satisfy my father? And if I did...how would it end? Would I stay in South Dakota and start the perfect All-American family complete with a white picket-fence in the yard and an apple pie in the window? Or would I be stricken with the same curse as my mother and run away to find the life I could only dream of?

I guess I should prepare for the both,

Only time will tell.

.1:53.AM.

It's 1:53 am in South Dakota. Nothing exciting as usual. I would like to send greeting to all of you readers. As you can probably tell im new to this. In a way im excited. I can finally be real without having to be afraid of judgement. I cal tell all of my thoughts, feeling, and emotions.

But how should I approach it?

Maybe tell you a little about me.
My name is Maci.
I live in South Dakota.

My mother was something amazing. So beautiful, caring, talented, and loving. Her only flaw is her free spirit. It doesnt fit in with the South Dakota lifestyle. I however am cursed with the same flaw. She's in Germany now. Living a life people from here wouldnt dream of. As much as I resent it, I am told I'm turning into her more and more as the days go by.

My father is the complete opposite of my mother and I. A small town man living the life he was born to live. Up at the crack of dawn, out to the field, and in for supper. Of course after my mother left us he has taken on most of her responsibility(cooking, cleaning, ect.) but he's not always around for that. Its my job to take care of him and make sure he's doing well enough to keep going.

Two complete opposites made me the person I am today. It's not always a good thing though. Sometimes I feel as if one half of my mind is my mother and the other is my father. Sometimes I just want to get out of here and start the Revolution we all dream of accomplishing, but the other half wants to settle down and have a family of my own. It's a scary thought when I think of the future.

In the end will I listen to her half or his?

I guess only time will tell.